Artistic Expression through Music

Music in all forms tells a story and brings out true feelings that I have a hard time expressing without this. In recovery especially I would be lost without being able to show my art in music. …” God is a DJ, life is a dance floor, love is the rhythm, and you are the music”

Music in all forms tells a story and brings out true feelings that I have a hard time expressing without this. In recovery especially I would be lost without being able to show my art in music. …” God is a DJ, life is a dance floor, love is the rhythm, and you are the music”

Art Through Music

By: Wesley Beebower

 

Art is one amazing thing in this world, the therapeutic value in expressing one’s self is truly amazing. It comes in all different forms, from drawing and poems to music and tattoos. You can express your true self in so many ways, the possibilities are endless. I choose to express my art through music. I like to think music can heal sadness, depression and anxiety. It can change your mood in a split second, and one song can bring back a memory from years ago. I have made a lot of my music out in the open, instead of being confined to a tiny studio, I like to venture out to the beach, the mountains, or even a city with a million things happening at once. I believe this brings out true emotion, and captures the mind in incredible ways to express your art. Honestly if it wasn’t for art and music, where would the world be? There is an amazing event that takes place at a music festival every year called the ART CAR, it is literally a moving boom box, that people attending the festival can walk up to and paint whatever they want on it while inspiring music plays, it shows you that art and music go hand in hand. Music in all forms tells a story and brings out true feelings that I have a hard time expressing without this. In recovery especially I would be lost without being able to show my art in music. …” God is a DJ, life is a dancefloor, love is the rhythm, and you are the music”

Art- Imperfectly Perfect

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I feel that in my art work comes out my unconscious mind as well as in my writing. The cool thing about art is you can’t force it just like I can’t force myself to feel I have a connection first or I don’t feel anything. When I have imperfections in my art work I relate it to the parts of me that aren’t perfect and vice versa on the parts of me that come out on the perfectionist side done exactly the way I am trying to be. I relate art to life I look at my own past as the imperfect parts and my future as the done right in the positive paths that are new and undone. As long as the imperfect parts of my mistakes are done with good intentions and healthy emotional boundaries I will look at the imperfect as perfectly done because life progress is Art.

Art- Word of the Week

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Art is a beautiful thing and has been an amazing tool in my recovery, when I feel lost, lonely, upset, resentful, I can draw or journal and see all sides of things and truly express myself. I am able to see things that my conscious can’t, and unconsciously draw or write them down and be able to process through my emotions.  While I was in active addiction, I never really appreciated the beauty in art; not just paintings, or pictures, but all forms of art. Art has so many different forms from drawing or painting, to music, dancing, acting, or photography.  For me, I see some form of art in almost all aspects of my life. In my eyes, every human being can be a artist in some form by expressing themselves and being creative in their own way. I always thought I was a horrible artist, I can’t draw, I can’t paint, I can’t sing, but I know I have a creative side, and I could not see that or appreciate it until I got sober.

One of the most amazing thing’s I have ever been a part of here at South Orange County Detox and Treatment is Salina's Art Group. It is so amazing to be able to process my emotions that sometimes I didn’t even know were there. To see what I unconsciously create and how it can all tie together to my emotions or feelings in that moment. It truly is amazing how art can show so many different things that you did not even know you were feeling. That is Salina’s Art, being able to process art with everyone at South Orange County Detox & Treatment and help bring their creative sides out and help them along the way. Art and being creative has been such a great tool in my sobriety, and even though I am not the greatest artist ever, I can still express myself in way I could never do verbally.

 

Love- Word of the Week

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     In the misery of addiction, I told myself “I don’t deserve love”. “I’m not worthy of love”. “I’ll never be happy”. You see, I thought that love had to be earned. I convinced myself that I had to be worthy of it or deserving of it, and so my happiness was tied to this belief.  My self-satisfaction came from my ability to earn love. I told myself I was not deserving of love, therefore I wasn't deserving of happiness. Despite my efforts, I could never "earn" or experience the love that I so deeply desired.

    I know today that love isn't earned, It’s given. In Sobriety, through my new pair of eyes, I can see that I, myself, made it hard to see love. Maybe my dad didn’t know how to say it, but it was there. Maybe my mom was shouting it, but my own demons were too loud for me to hear. I was blind to love because I had lost the love for myself. Who was I before life started to happen? Who was I before I began to live in this drug filled illusion? As a kid, I just remember feeling, It was something that just flowed. It was the times of jumping on the bed laughing or when I would play catch with my mom or dad with the baseball.  Love wasn’t discovering anything or anyone else, it was all about discovery ME. Once I discovered my true self in sobriety, I discovered love. It was then that I realized the very thing that I desired was something I have the ability to give to others. 

     Now, I am able to experience love, because I have it in me. I give it to strangers, I give it to friends who are still struggling with addiction, I give it to others in pain; to enemies, to those who left me, those who couldn’t stay, and to those who’ve forgotten how to find it. Love was always there.. Love is in all of us...When we are able to discover love, we become what we are meant to be, together.

Love at South Orange County Detox and Treatment

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When I was young love was a foreign word to me. Although my parents would shelter, feed, and take care of me, there was a lack of love. I thought this was a normal thing to be happening at this age. I soon realized how other children were not experiencing this. And this would trigger anger and rage. I grew up fighting, arguing, and rebelling which turned me into a negative mess.

     Fast forwarding I turned into a gang member and a violent criminal. Spending time in and out of jail, getting into unhealthy relationships and surrounding myself with very negative people. I was doing very badly with my life until I checked myself into South Orange County Detox and Treatment (SOCD) and met the Program Director, Salina Shuler.  She taught me tolerance, patience, loyalty, trust, and LOVE. I have never experienced that and since being shown these things, I’ve completely turned my outlook on life around. SOCD is teaching me how to be an honest man and move forward with positivity. I am forever grateful for South Orange County Detox & Treatment.

Unconditional Love

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Connection with Affection
Friendship,
Loving perfect imperfections
Never preying on insecurities
Always bettering
Pushing each other
Appreciation
Honesty in loyalty
Emotionally patient & flexible
Understanding weaknesses
Relaxing with guards down
Enjoying each other’s presence
Connecting
Just the way you are
Understanding of where you came from and why
Finding love with flaws
Always staying by your side
 
 

Authentic Love

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Love is more than just a feeling. Love can be a vibe or atmosphere when around something or someone. It can be as simple as being content with my passion, or love with a significant other. The love I have for others isn’t about looks but who they are as a person. Being non-judgmental at first, taking the time to know and understand them. I find the inner beauty in others. Past or present, experiences, negative or positive, truly caring, loyal, honest, and compassionate for this significant other helped me fall in love over time, disregarding their appearance or past, only focusing on the present. Love isn’t something you want to rush into at first sight, this can be decieving, it takes time. Whether it’s a relationship or your passion, love is something you commit yourself to. Working through the difficult times and the outcome will be well worth it

Finding Lost Love in Recovery

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One of the biggest and desired feelings that start to fade and come distorted in my addiction is love. My love for the outdoors, love of the people in my life and most importantly the love I have for myself. To me, love is being completely unselfish and doing whatever is best for that of which you love, no matter what. In addiction I have been so self-centered and closed off that love is very rare in my life. I’ve been given time to contemplate and discover new things about myself and people in my life, in many different ways. One of the most impactful being one of our weekly groups at SOCD. We express what we feel through things such as poems or drawings and paintings. Then get feedback on what our conscious or inner self is really trying to say. Salina is always amazing at helping you push yourself and finding what underlying feelings/meanings there are with everyone. All that is provided here, is helping me rediscover what I have lost over the years and yearn for love

Love Redefined

Love has been a misnomer in my life because I have never truly known what love is. I always thought that families inherently love each other or that if I am physically intimate with someone than there must be love. But this isn’t true nor healthy. I’m more aware of how love is shown through action, emotional connection, communication and an overall sense of being selfless and honest with one’s self and with each other.

Love has been a misnomer in my life because I have never truly known what love is. I always thought that families inherently love each other or that if I am physically intimate with someone than there must be love. But this isn’t true nor healthy. I’m more aware of how love is shown through action, emotional connection, communication and an overall sense of being selfless and honest with one’s self and with each other.

Getting sober and working on my recovery has given me an idea of what love is, how to show it and all the great things that can be developed as a result. Being here at SOCD, and with Salinas guidance and effort, I have been able to explore how love and the lack of it, has affected my life and my relationships. Love has been a misnomer in my life because I have never truly known what love is. I always thought that families inherently love each other or that if I am physically intimate with someone than there must be love. But this isn’t true nor healthy. I’m more aware of how love is shown through action, emotional connection, communication and an overall sense of being selfless and honest with one’s self and with each other. I know that I am not capable of truly loving anyone until I can love and treat myself better. If I can’t maintain emotional, mental, physical, or financial stability then how can I expect to be a stable partner, son, brother, or friend? Thanks, in large part, to this program and Salina, am I able to slowly start attaining a level of stability, self-worth and serenity in order to show myself the love I deserve. Only then will I be able to show true love to others and to develop healthier relationships without any ulterior motives or selfishness.

Love- Loving Myself and Others in Sobriety

Being sober gives me the chance to truly discover who I am, and learn to love myself so that I can give and show love to other people, by showing the people I love that I care and appreciate them.

Being sober gives me the chance to truly discover who I am, and learn to love myself so that I can give and show love to other people, by showing the people I love that I care and appreciate them.

Love is something that is felt but also something that is shown through action. To show that you love someone is to do things for them that show you care for them and your grateful for them. Doing things for them shows that you care. But something just as simple as telling them or expressing how you feel, can make a major impact. Throughout my life I never felt love or acceptance, and if I did it was normally from a false idea of love or an idealized version. Being sober gives me the chance to truly discover who I am, and learn to love myself so that I can give and show love to other people, by showing the people I love that I care and appreciate them.