Awakening- Recovery "Word of the Week"

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                                             Word of the Week: Awakening
Trying to find meaning in my life and in my existence recently helped me to realize that I’ve been abandoning my ideal, beliefs, and morals. Reminiscing and remembering my dreams, hopes, and visions as a child and the way I’ve been acting against those ideals led me to contemplate the meaning of why I’m here and what I have to offer. After realizing how poorly I’ve been treating others and myself, I’ve been struggling with the guilt and shame associated with my actions. I’ve had a sort of awakening of which I haven’t experienced before. Call it a spiritual awakening if you will. Since that experience, I’ve been trying to think, act, feel, and talk with purpose in hopes of attaining those hopes, dreams, and visions I had as a child

Perspective- Resolving Conflict

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Being able to see all sides of a conflict, or a problem, is an important step and precursor to resolving arguments and conflicts thus attaining some level of serenity. Having a closed mind and a one-sided view of scenarios is always a sure-fire way of becoming angry, frustrated, sad, and resentful. It wasn’t until I was able to focus on perspective that I was able to let go of the negative emotions I had acquired throughout my addiction to drugs and alcohol. Often times my ego and stubbornness would tell me I’m right to think, act, and feel that I was always right and the party I was in conflict with was always wrong. However, now I make it a priority to keep an open mind and to think of perspective as a means to resolving conflict and making peace.

Perspective- A New Outlook

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In this life, perspective is seen in two forms, positive and negative. In my addiction I was walking with a backpack full of negative perspectives that outweighed any positive perceptions. Then, the day came where I decided to change my reality and surrendered to a process that involved living a drug free life. Working through the steps I started to unpack the negative perspectives and let go of my unhealthy delusional perceptions that used to pollute my thinking. My perceptions were no longer altered by drugs and alcohol resulting in a change to my quality of life. A positive perspective was born that emotionally and mentally influenced my perception. My negative backpack was empty and weightless. It is being refilled with positive tools that are weightless because my life is now seen in solution verses negative pollution. Do not entertain negative thinking, influence positive thinking and start believing.

Perspective- Word of the Week

Perspective

Perspective is a huge part of my life. When I’m in my addiction my entire perspective and outlook on life changes entirely: my passion for doing things that I love dissipates and my point of view is dramatically negative. I get stuck in a close-minded bubble of negative energy. However, being clean and sober, my positive perspective on life increases tenfold. I start to look at the big picture and actually think positively about the future. While having a positive perspective my passion for astronomy, surfing, and music comes back. My mind opens and I see the world in bright colors. This is so important to me because it sets the foundation of my life. When I see things in a positive way, my actions are healthy and the energy is contagious.

Forgiveness and Empathy

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For me, forgiveness comes from a deep understanding of someone else’s life and the contributing factors that led him or her to act out in negative ways. Personally, I put myself in my enemy’s shoes and, from there, I decide my own comfortability of forgiving that person.  I ask myself how? And I ask myself why?   I feel that when I put myself in someone’s shoes, it helps me have the compassion I need to forgive that person… Sometimes I may never really forget the pain that person inflicted on me (whether justified or not), but I can understand enough to find some levels of forgiveness

Forgiveness- Forgiving Yourself in Sobriety

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Forgiveness is not something that has come easy to me at all throughout my life. It’s easy to hold grudges and resentments towards personal experiences we’ve gone through in our lives. It takes time and emotional growth to come to a state of mind where we can put ourselves in someone else’s shoes. I believe that admitting and accepting our part in resentments is a key factor in the process of forgiving others. I also believe that getting to know our true self and growing in sobriety can only lead to the discovery that we are able to forgive ourselves. 

Forgiveness- Word of the Week

"At South Orange County Detox & Treatment, I have learned to forgive myself, to work on my emotional sobriety, and to continue to grow as the strong healthy sober mom, daughter, niece, friend, human being that I was meant to be now and forever".

"At South Orange County Detox & Treatment, I have learned to forgive myself, to work on my emotional sobriety, and to continue to grow as the strong healthy sober mom, daughter, niece, friend, human being that I was meant to be now and forever".

Forgiveness is an extremely powerful word that I have learned needs to first apply to myself. I must first forgive myself to begin the healing and the process of moving forward in strength and honesty. This not to say that I'm not cut to the heart by what I have done in my drinking career, as that would make it way too easy to give myself a pass to drink again.  But, rather, when I don’t forgive myself,  I stay in my own pity party which inevitably leads me to drink and to reinforce the denial of my actions .

My Creator is quick to forgive and, we as humans are imperfect beings, judging harshly ourselves and others. My creator takes into account all things and does not bring to mind our past transgressions... If we truly turn around---He's not looking for wrong but instead searching for the Goodness in our Hearts. What a gracious thing....I can only compare this love to the I have for my children. I bonded with them from the moment I found out that I had life inside of me. I have been there through every step of their time on this earth and when they fall short, I never stop loving them. So, if I as an imperfect mother, I can have this level of love and forgiveness for them... Who am I to not forgive myself just as My Creator has Forgiven Me?

At South Orange County Detox & Treatment, I have learned to forgive myself, to work on my emotional sobriety, and to continue to grow as the strong healthy sober mom, daughter, niece, friend, human being that I was meant to be now and forever.

Thanksgiving- "I'm Thankful for My Mom"

I’m thankful for my mom, she is one of the hardest workers I know by showing me the path of perseverance and resilience.

I’m thankful for my mom, she is one of the hardest workers I know by showing me the path of perseverance and resilience.

Thanksgiving serves as a great reminder to realize how lucky I truly am. I used to feel lonely throughout the holidays because I felt distant from my relatives, who all reside in northern California. My holidays are spent with my immediate family: my mom, stepdad, and two of my brothers. I used to wish to spend the holidays at one big family party, however, those thoughts of sadness took away the very importance of what Thanksgiving is. Those moments of sadness did not let me appreciate or even acknowledge all the work my mom has done to provide for my family. Now, I greatly appreciate all my mom’s hard work to make the best of every holiday she can. Although my mom struggles financially she does the best she can to provide for my brothers and I. I’m thankful for my mom, she is one of the hardest workers I know by showing me the path of perseverance and resilience.

I am also thankful for the counselors in my past who helped me during my depression. I now realize that when presented with hardship it is so easy to become forgetful of all the blessings in one’s own life by glorifying and romanticizing the lives of others. However, upon reflection, I realize I am very privileged myself; I am healthy, surrounded by individuals who care for me, have an education, as well as a full time job that is filled with constant learning experiences. I now do not dread the holidays and look forward to spending Thanksgiving with my immediate family. I am grateful that I have the opportunity to help my mom financially and that I am able express to my family and loved ones how much they are appreciated.

Thanksgiving-"I am thankful that by chance I found a wonderful place to start my Life"

I am thankful that by chance I found a wonderful place to start my life.

I am thankful that by chance I found a wonderful place to start my life.

 Well, 1st of all I'm thankful to be alive and not in a hospital, and that my children still love me. It was just by chance that I looked at a list of places to go and I picked South Orange County Detox & Treatment, simply because it was in San Clemente.  How could I know that I was going to get a chance at not just getting the alcohol out of my body, but to find out my the underlying issues....be able to be not just physically sober but emotionally sober, is a gift that Salina has such a firm, loving logical, hold on. I am thankful that by chance I found a wonderful place to start my life.