I never really allowed myself to be close with that many people. It seemed I was only really intimate with those who accepted my beliefs, behaviors, actions, I guess just my life-style. I went with the wrong crowd and I was comfortable with that. It’s a very real feeling of intimacy even though that feeling was based off drugs. Although, time will tell when dealing with other addicts that I called friends, that their intimacy roots only with the drugs before anything or anyone else. I’ve known the false reality for years and with some time clean I can say it has kept me from knowing what true intimacy could feel like. Now I’ve allowed myself to be close to those who genuinely care about my wellbeing. They are supportive, caring, truthful people I call my friends and family. I’ve become close with them and in return they’ve helped transform me into the person I am today, and I only hope to give back whats been given to me.