Alcohol Detox

Love at South Orange County Detox and Treatment

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When I was young love was a foreign word to me. Although my parents would shelter, feed, and take care of me, there was a lack of love. I thought this was a normal thing to be happening at this age. I soon realized how other children were not experiencing this. And this would trigger anger and rage. I grew up fighting, arguing, and rebelling which turned me into a negative mess.

     Fast forwarding I turned into a gang member and a violent criminal. Spending time in and out of jail, getting into unhealthy relationships and surrounding myself with very negative people. I was doing very badly with my life until I checked myself into South Orange County Detox and Treatment (SOCD) and met the Program Director, Salina Shuler.  She taught me tolerance, patience, loyalty, trust, and LOVE. I have never experienced that and since being shown these things, I’ve completely turned my outlook on life around. SOCD is teaching me how to be an honest man and move forward with positivity. I am forever grateful for South Orange County Detox & Treatment.

Love Redefined

Love has been a misnomer in my life because I have never truly known what love is. I always thought that families inherently love each other or that if I am physically intimate with someone than there must be love. But this isn’t true nor healthy. I’m more aware of how love is shown through action, emotional connection, communication and an overall sense of being selfless and honest with one’s self and with each other.

Love has been a misnomer in my life because I have never truly known what love is. I always thought that families inherently love each other or that if I am physically intimate with someone than there must be love. But this isn’t true nor healthy. I’m more aware of how love is shown through action, emotional connection, communication and an overall sense of being selfless and honest with one’s self and with each other.

Getting sober and working on my recovery has given me an idea of what love is, how to show it and all the great things that can be developed as a result. Being here at SOCD, and with Salinas guidance and effort, I have been able to explore how love and the lack of it, has affected my life and my relationships. Love has been a misnomer in my life because I have never truly known what love is. I always thought that families inherently love each other or that if I am physically intimate with someone than there must be love. But this isn’t true nor healthy. I’m more aware of how love is shown through action, emotional connection, communication and an overall sense of being selfless and honest with one’s self and with each other. I know that I am not capable of truly loving anyone until I can love and treat myself better. If I can’t maintain emotional, mental, physical, or financial stability then how can I expect to be a stable partner, son, brother, or friend? Thanks, in large part, to this program and Salina, am I able to slowly start attaining a level of stability, self-worth and serenity in order to show myself the love I deserve. Only then will I be able to show true love to others and to develop healthier relationships without any ulterior motives or selfishness.

Beauty and Emotional Sobriety

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To me in recovery beauty is in the mental and physical transformation that happens when we properly work on emotional recovery. The transformation in a persons character and behaviors become humble and their ability to understand themselves and other addicts on a much deeper level. The humility in overcoming a rock bottom makes us grateful for life on life’s terms because they have lived a shallow empty life on their terms that didn’t work out. When we live in love for the little things in life and we become content and present with ourselves and live in the moment, we can feel the vibe of serenity in the surrender of our behavior. To me, that is the beauty of the gift of desperation that God gives addicts in recovery.

Awakening from Alcoholism

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Awakening is a very fitting word for a disease such as alcoholism. Alcohol dulls the senses, and for me, my heart and soul. What I have learned here at South Orange County Detox and Treatment is that it is ok and even encouraged to awake to who I really am. What everyone, and especially Salina, has done for me is to help me awaken to my true self. By encouraging me to dig deep to be completely honest without judgement is such a gift that is given here at SOCD freely. Here they encourage me to awaken to not only physical sobriety, but more importantly, emotional sobriety. I feel that I now have the tools to awaken the true self; mother, daughter and friend. The true self is awake and sober!

Awakening- Finding Pleasure in the Little Things

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In recovery, this time around, my awakening started by noticing the little parts of life that I enjoy and realized that under the influence of drugs and alcohol, I can't enjoy these simple pleasures. With this awareness, I see the bigger picture of what life has to offer me. I’m starting to realize that taking life for granted has been a huge mistake of mine; I don’t know what I have until it's gone.  Using this awakening as fuel to attack addiction, keeps me in the right state of mind necessary to keep pushing forward and progressing in my recovery.

Awakening- "My True Soul has been Awakened"

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Awakening

When I think about awakening, I think about the day I woke up from the nightmare that I called a life. It was a moment of serenity, and a weird, unexplainable feeling came over me. I then realized I was living a life of a lie, a false self, throwing away all responsibility. On this day, I decided I had enough and prayed to my Higher Power for something to change. I had to go through hell to get to heaven, experience countless negative consequences to get to where I am at today. Today, I have a relationship with my Higher Power, I look at life from a completely different perception. Looking at the ocean, the mountains, and the stars, I smile, because my true soul has been awakened, and I now have the chance to live the amazing life I was put on this earth to have. Let there be hope, let there be light, let there be awakening tonight...Let there be joy, and let it all go.

Awakening- Recovery "Word of the Week"

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                                             Word of the Week: Awakening
Trying to find meaning in my life and in my existence recently helped me to realize that I’ve been abandoning my ideal, beliefs, and morals. Reminiscing and remembering my dreams, hopes, and visions as a child and the way I’ve been acting against those ideals led me to contemplate the meaning of why I’m here and what I have to offer. After realizing how poorly I’ve been treating others and myself, I’ve been struggling with the guilt and shame associated with my actions. I’ve had a sort of awakening of which I haven’t experienced before. Call it a spiritual awakening if you will. Since that experience, I’ve been trying to think, act, feel, and talk with purpose in hopes of attaining those hopes, dreams, and visions I had as a child

Perspective- Word of the Week

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Perspective is a huge part of my life. When I’m in my addiction my entire perspective and outlook on life changes entirely: my passion for doing things that I love dissipates and my point of view is dramatically negative. I get stuck in a close-minded bubble of negative energy. However, being clean and sober, my positive perspective on life increases tenfold. I start to look at the big picture and actually think positively about the future. While having a positive perspective my passion for astronomy, surfing, and music comes back. My mind opens and I see the world in bright colors. This is so important to me because it sets the foundation of my life. When I see things in a positive way, my actions are healthy and the energy is contagious.

Thanksgiving- "I'm Thankful for My Mom"

I’m thankful for my mom, she is one of the hardest workers I know by showing me the path of perseverance and resilience.

I’m thankful for my mom, she is one of the hardest workers I know by showing me the path of perseverance and resilience.

Thanksgiving serves as a great reminder to realize how lucky I truly am. I used to feel lonely throughout the holidays because I felt distant from my relatives, who all reside in northern California. My holidays are spent with my immediate family: my mom, stepdad, and two of my brothers. I used to wish to spend the holidays at one big family party, however, those thoughts of sadness took away the very importance of what Thanksgiving is. Those moments of sadness did not let me appreciate or even acknowledge all the work my mom has done to provide for my family. Now, I greatly appreciate all my mom’s hard work to make the best of every holiday she can. Although my mom struggles financially she does the best she can to provide for my brothers and I. I’m thankful for my mom, she is one of the hardest workers I know by showing me the path of perseverance and resilience.

I am also thankful for the counselors in my past who helped me during my depression. I now realize that when presented with hardship it is so easy to become forgetful of all the blessings in one’s own life by glorifying and romanticizing the lives of others. However, upon reflection, I realize I am very privileged myself; I am healthy, surrounded by individuals who care for me, have an education, as well as a full time job that is filled with constant learning experiences. I now do not dread the holidays and look forward to spending Thanksgiving with my immediate family. I am grateful that I have the opportunity to help my mom financially and that I am able express to my family and loved ones how much they are appreciated.

Thanksgiving-"I am thankful that by chance I found a wonderful place to start my Life"

I am thankful that by chance I found a wonderful place to start my life.

I am thankful that by chance I found a wonderful place to start my life.

 Well, 1st of all I'm thankful to be alive and not in a hospital, and that my children still love me. It was just by chance that I looked at a list of places to go and I picked South Orange County Detox & Treatment, simply because it was in San Clemente.  How could I know that I was going to get a chance at not just getting the alcohol out of my body, but to find out my the underlying issues....be able to be not just physically sober but emotionally sober, is a gift that Salina has such a firm, loving logical, hold on. I am thankful that by chance I found a wonderful place to start my life.