In my early sobriety, it was easy to see the things that I was grateful for, mostly because before I was in hell drinking and using. I was definitely grateful for the help South Orange County Detox and Treatment (SOCD) and Salina provided for me as that was a no brainer. It was my resentments that was blocking me off from having gratitude for the others that stuck by my side. I was horrible to my family and I made them out to be there worst people in the world when really it was me who was completely destructive and antisocial. It took me a long time to finally start realizing that my family really did stick by my side and fought for me when I needed help this time. They helped me get here to SOCD and now with two years of sobriety under my belt, they have completely transformed me into a better man. I say that it is easier to know what I was grateful for when I was in early sobriety because I was in a state of surrender. When I started getting more time under my belt and at times even being complacent, I have been selfish in my thoughts overlooking the big picture of what I now have in my life. Although I have these fleeting thoughts I have people here at SOCD that have been with me since day one that are able to pull me out of that “Stinking Thinking” and help me grow from my mistakes. I am forever grateful for the friends I have made here and my family who still believes in me.