Prior to my journey in recovery, there was many times in my life that I chose to deal with grief in destructive ways. I used drugs as if it were the solution to bringing my friends back to life. The actions that I took only led me into situations that would inevitably cause more grief. Now that I’m clean, I perceive things much differently. In this disease we lose friends who don’t make it past surrendering. Although it is a horrible feeling, I think to myself that although the body is gone, God still keeps the soul on the ground. In a way, your loved ones, and really everyone’s loved ones, are still here. I am still quite new to the way God works things out in life, but really in this little amount of time I have seen true miracles and beauty that only God could produce.