Unresolved grief has kept me in a negative place where I haven’t been able to feel the difficult emotions that came along with things in my life that I have lost. Grief can affect recovery by getting in the way of the right process and also distorting the way I look at and feel things. Instead of facing the grief head on, I use drugs to help suppress the process of real emotional healing and so I can avoid feeling the emotions I don’t want to feel. This has got in the way of my emotional recovery and has kept me from growing. After years and years of avoiding grief I am now learning how this unresolved grief affects my everyday life in ways I wasn’t aware of. I am a little scared to experience these emotions but I know I need to if I am ever going to mature emotionally.