Grief has been something I have always struggled with and it has also affected my recovery in many ways. At one point in time I was almost sober for 2 years and I thought that I was doing good in my sobriety, emotionally and spiritually. Then I experienced my father passing away and I immediately went into feeling depressed and detached where I stayed for a long, long time. I'm learning right now that not experiencing my grief most likely contributed to my relapse and the vicious cycle that I have been stuck in for the past 3 years. I know it is going to be a really tough process to go through but I think now I am at the point in my life where I need to faces these demons so that I can get back to living a sober and happy life.