I have always struggled with patience. All my life I have been used to the instant gratification provided by either my relationships that were codependent or the instant high that my needle and drugs could give me. I have given up many life choices because of my lack of patience. In some instances, in my past, if I were to show patience I would be in a much different setting in my life today with a lot going for me. Instead, I gave all those choices up for the quick solution provided by my own will. Patience shows God’s will. Sometimes it’s hard for me to accept it, but He knows what’s best and if I trust Him, He will guide me exactly where I need to be. Although I still do struggle with patience, I have gotten much better in these two years of sobriety and clean time. I have learned to try not to rush things and take it easy. Every time I receive so much more through my higher power versus my own will. If you are praying for patience, be careful, you might just get what you wish for.