Forgiveness is a process that starts with myself. The first step in the right direction is being able to look at all my wrongs towards those I have hurt. In order to forgive myself I need to take full responsibility for my wrong doings unto others. I’ve blamed others for so long, having not owned any of my difficulties has made it easy for me to continue in denial. Starting forgiveness with myself means taking a look at my actions and behaviors and being able to accept that I cannot live like that no longer. I feel that the act of forgiving myself is and can be much more rewarding and freeing the further in my recovery I go. Forgiving and asking for forgiveness from my family and loved ones is difficult to do, yet hard to ignore. I feel forgiveness with my son is what weighs the heaviest. My Son means the world to me and accepting the fact that I haven’t been around for him is difficult but now that I’m on the journey of recovery the process of forgiveness has already taken place.