Pain

Healing Pain In Sobriety

PAIN-RECOVERY WORD OF THE WEEK  SOUTH ORANGE COUNTY DETOX & TREATMENT-949-584-5927

PAIN-RECOVERY WORD OF THE WEEK

SOUTH ORANGE COUNTY DETOX & TREATMENT-949-584-5927

Pain is a part of life that everyone must face at some point or other. When we think of pain, we usually think about ourselves, how others treated us bad or how things went wrong in our lives. That is how I looked at pain before I got sober. After getting clean I started thinking about how much pain I’ve caused others. As time went on I eventually gained some tools to use and I started making amends to those I’ve caused pain to, most importantly my family. That was one of the greatest gifts ever having my family all be supportive and coming back into my life. Recovery has really made things in my life so much better, although there is the occasional pain, I now know what to do with myself to get rid of that feeling. Thanks to the program and the place, I call home, South Orange County Detox and Treatment.

 

Pain-Grief & Loss in Recovery

PAIN-RECOVERY WORD OF THE WEEK  SOUTH ORANGE COUNTY DETOX & TREATMENT-949-584-5927

PAIN-RECOVERY WORD OF THE WEEK

SOUTH ORANGE COUNTY DETOX & TREATMENT-949-584-5927

It’s been 10 weeks since my boyfriend died of a drug overdose. I’ve stopped counting the days, but the number of weeks that have passed still comes to me naturally. It’s become a mark of my identity. I don’t think there’s anything more painful than the raw despair I felt in the days after he passed. But 2 ½ months after his death, just when I thought I was gaining some control over the situation, there’s been a heavier overlay of sadness than I’ve experienced for a while and it’s a new kind of pain. I’m guessing it’s because the shock is subsiding and the numbness and disbelief are beginning to wear off. My brain is beginning to process my reality. I’m being forced the accept he isn’t coming back. Thing’s feel more real than they did a few weeks ago and my pain has gotten worse. Memories and thoughts of him are immediately followed by the crushing realization that we will never again do whatever it was I was reminiscing- whereas before that was to incomprehensible to absorb. Every day I find myself wondering what he and I would have been doing had things been different. Whatever we would have been doing would certainly look different than my days do now- starting my mornings trying to gather the courage and energy to start another day in my new world without him, fighting through the pain and trying to move forward.

Facing Pain in Early Recovery

PAIN-RECOVERY WORD OF THE WEEK  SOUTH ORANGE COUNTY DETOX & TREATMENT-949-584-5927

PAIN-RECOVERY WORD OF THE WEEK

SOUTH ORANGE COUNTY DETOX & TREATMENT-949-584-5927

To me, when I think of pain I immediately think of my son. It’s been 8 long years since I’ve seen him and that causes me so much pain. My using and drinking kept me numb to the point to where it didn’t matter if I saw him or not. When inside I knew I wanted to see him so bad, but after using and drinking that want to see him quickly went away. So now not only have I been in pain, but I know he is too. This is something I did not want to do or think I’d ever do when my first and only child was born. To think my son has grown up without his Dad kills me, and it’s also motivated me to want to have a better life and appreciate things clean and sober. Another type of pain I have is living with my parents as an adult, wasting my life away as well as causing them so much pain as well. I’ve not treated them right and when I was using which was all the time I would get angry and take it out on them when they’re not the people that I needed to take it out on because they’re the only reason I’m still alive. They’ve helped me through all my hard times and sicknesses and trying to help me get clean several times, and I have not treated them with the love and respect that they deserve. A pain that I have not felt and don’t ever want to is losing someone for good and not being able to see them again. My sister just lost her husband to the disease of addiction that I currently struggle with and to see the pain she goes through is so horrible and I have not been there for her nearly as much as I want to. I am so grateful for them and South Orange County Detox & Treatment and Salina for helping me because even though I am now feeling this pain I’ve caused for the first time, it is helping me motivate myself to push through the hard times and stay clean so that in the future I can be there for my son and my family.

Pain- “Like A Nicotine Stain on the End of my Fingers, Needing to be Washed and Cleansed”

“Like A Nicotine Stain on the End of my Fingers, Needing to be Washed and Cleansed”  Pain-Recovery Word of the Week- South Orange County Detox & Treatment

“Like A Nicotine Stain on the End of my Fingers, Needing to be Washed and Cleansed”

Pain-Recovery Word of the Week- South Orange County Detox & Treatment

When I think of pain, the first thing that comes to mind is physically hurting. However, pain can be so much more than what one can see with the naked eye. I don’t know if what I feel now is pain or sadness but either way it hurts knowing I can’t change the past or how others think or react to me. This pain or sadness tends to linger like a nicotine stain on the end of my fingers, needing to be washed and cleansed. We experience the loss of those we love, whether it be a pet, friend, family member, etc., but this is life and that will never change. Having felt pain in all these areas, I have learned and developed necessary tools to cope. I am learning to relieve myself of pain in order to move forward. It is important for me to accept life on life’s terms and not to forget the progress I have made.