Motivation

"A New Way of Living"- Motivation in Recovery

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In the past I had very low to no motivation for things that could have been accomplished and benefited me and most likely would have pointed me in a completely different path that wouldn’t have lead me through the hell that I’ve endured. All I needed was to be motivated by the right people, the people who gave me direction in my life. In the past I was motivated by the people who really, for the most part, didn’t care or were lonely in their misery and needed another soul to blacken. Instead of school I chose the streets. Instead of hitting baseballs, I was shooting dope. Between the streets, abandoned buildings, and jail.

This is only one short story about where the wrong motivators send me. After 13 years of jails, rehabs, overdoses, violence, deaths, loss, homelessness, starving, psychosis, and manic depression, I was at the point where I either started to live or I was just going to allow myself to die. It took me a couple tries to find where I felt comfortable enough to feel safe in recovery but once I found my family at SOCD, I became motivated to achieve what I was made to do. Once a high school drop out, dead beat junkie loser that really should have been dead a long time ago, I am now in my 2nd semester of college, with 7 months of sobriety. Instead of hurting myself and the others around me, I’m growing and learning each day which motivates me to continue on the path sobriety and a new way of living.

Motivation- Turning Negative Experiences into Positive Experiences

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Motivation helps get me from Point A to point B. It gives me the drive to complete something I’ve started. Overtime I used negativity as motivation towards a more positive outlook on life. Motivation is important because without a drive or desire to work towards what you want in life you will find yourself without purpose. Negative experiences helped me gain motivation towards a more positive life.

Motivation for Myself and My Loved Ones

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There are a lot of things that drive us all in our daily lives. Good and bad. When I catch myself doing something out of line with my morals, or moving toward something or someone for the wrong reasons, I always try to re-align myself by thinking of the people in my life that are important to me. And how I’m not living up to my own expectations of being the person I want to be or could be or could be for them as well as myself. Striving to be the best person I can be, not only for myself but for my loved ones, as well as what motivates me and make the most of each day and every situation while continuing my journey to recovery.

Motivation and Purpose

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Having the luxury of being able to take the time to reflect on my actions, behaviors and purpose is something I’m extremely grateful for. Throughout this time I’ve been able to develop a purpose and vision that I’m actually motivated to pursue. For the first time in years I’m understanding that motivation is accompanied by so much more than just intention - It’s  accompanied by daily action and subduing my sudden impulses and urges in order to succeed in a goal I’ve set. It had been difficult in the past to subdue immediate gratification but with the help of Salina & SOCD I’ve been able to learn who I truly am, who I want to be and what I want in life. The work and effort I put into my recovery sowed the seeds that blossomed into creating vision and purpose in my life. Today I’m aware, however, that I won’t be able to harvest the fruits of my labor if I’m lacking in motivation and action. I must remember to be persistent in my  drive and determination; And I must be honest with myself about what I want and desire in life

Sticking with the My Script- Motivation in Recovery

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In recovery, motivation for me starts with the understanding of what I want. This comes from within for me. When times get hard and I lose track of myself, I remember what it is I want and then the whole cycle of motivation recycles itself, and then I’m back on track. Having something I want helps me learn to work with the level of motivation that I have in the moment. In recovery my motivation to have good healthy real friends is a huge motivation because I have not had that in the past. If I continue to stick to the script that is laid out in front of me, all that is possible and that’s my motivation for recovery.

Motivation- Word of the Week

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Motivation is not something that comes easy to me. It’s difficult to be motivated to do anything because I never learned or developed how to have value in myself. I didn’t believe that I deserved to have good things in life.

In addiction my only motivation and end goal was related to drugs and avoiding withdrawal. Within those motivations, I manipulated and hurt the people around me. I eventually came to notice my selfishness, my life in ruins, and the affect I was having on my daughter. Being in sobriety, my motivations are for myself to be content in my life and in my own head, so that in return, I can give my daughter the mother and the life that she deserves.

I’m motivated to be content with my life because I’ve always been unhappy and I’ve always searched for outside influences to validate me. But now I am ready to find love within myself. I’m motivated to have a sense of calmness and understanding in my head because I am so used to over-thinking and self-sabotaging, which always leads me back to numbing my emotions and over-active brain with substances. But I am now ready to create new patterns for myself.

I’m also, most importantly, motivated to see my daughter smiling and laughing. To be happy in life and to be able to have her look up to me and believe that I truly love and understand her. I want to teach her to have value and love for herself. To be okay with who she is and feel accepted, so that she has the chance to have motivation to give herself everything she deserves in life.