Showing humility is a big part of recovery. It is important to show it on a daily basis and to let go of all pride and ego. Humility is keeping an open mind and remaining willing to listen to and follow direction. It is definitely easier said than done but if you can master this, you will be successful in your journey of recovery. If you are unable to remain humble in the process of learning new things, you will eventually lose all peace and serenity. The act of obtaining a sponsor can be humbling as it can be difficult to put faith in one person to direct you down the path of recovery. Being a sponsor to somebody is also a humbling experience as being of service is important to maintaining sobriety. There is always somebody who needs help and there is always something new to learn.
Humility, for me, can be difficult to practice at times especially when first getting clean or when having to listen to someone talk whom I’m not very fond of. I’ve come to understand and adopt, somewhat easily, the humbleness and selflessness that it takes to help others. Even when I’m not in the best state of mind, being there for others helps me reconnect with the progress I’ve made due to the help and support I received at the beginning of my journey in recovery. When I help another addict or alcoholic I like to explain to them that I am not above or better than them but equal, in hopes to change their outlook or perspective they may have on the situation, to strengthen and offer hope. We all have strengths and weaknesses and taking action to finding the balance in life is my idea of being humble.
Humility to me is the loss of one’s pride. I often find humility in thinking of others before myself. Addiction is a selfish disease. It took a lot of humility for me to accept defeat, put my ego aside, and ask for help. Being newly sober, I have often been thinking about the effects my using and drinking has on those whom I love, primarily my son. Throughout the course of my addiction, my behaviors have lead me astray from any relationship with him, but I know that if I remain humble and willing to progress forward in my recovery, I will be able to establish a new and everlasting relationship in time. Maintaining sobriety has been difficult for me in the past, however I now am at an all-time low and have decided to take my recovery seriously. I now find myself engaged and open minded more than ever. I am willing to admit that I do not have all the answers and that I am not in control, God is. Throughout my stay at South Orange County Detox, I have noticed that being of service and supporting other’s that are struggling has given me strength. Although my progress may seem subtle to myself, it has been acknowledged that I am making huge strides towards being able to maintain long term sobriety. I am not perfect and react occasionally off impulse, but it is my awareness that is leading me to make immediate amends when I am in the wrong. I know that if I remain humble and grateful on a daily basis, I will be able to achieve everything this world has to offer.
Humility and active addiction are like oil and water, they do not mix. However, humility is imperative to recovery from addiction. Step one in A.A requires surrender. It requires admitting you are powerless over drugs, that you need direction and don’t know how to live a happy life. If done correctly, it crushes all of your pride and ego. That moment of surrender is very humbling and grants relief. I have checked into rehab countless times and have been willing to admit I am powerless over drugs but it has been much harder for me to completely surrender ALL areas of my will and life. I was terminally unique. After a few days, weeks, or months, my pride and ego would swell. I would stop listening and start magnifying differences instead of similarities, and take my power back. This inevitably always ended in another miserable relapse. The moment I stop living in gratitude, acceptance, and humility, I start taking back control. I always end up in the same place, completely out of control and powerless. I have to remember my best thinking got me into a lot of horrible situations and ultimately into the rooms of A.A. It’s only when I surrender, take guidance, and live in humility, that I truly regain power and am in recovery from addiction.