SO far in sobriety I’ve gained many gifts, gifts that I would have never understood or appreciated in my using. When I was using and probably even before that, gifts to me were materials, money, presents, etc. I thought that these things could and would make me happy. These things would end up used, spent or forgotten immediately and the so called “happiness” was a farce. Getting clean after hitting my rock bottom was hard to see positively from right off the bat. But putting work in I slowly started to gain little things here and there such as friends, energy, motivation, etc. The little gifts that I never would have thought of are now helping me move forward. Soon after that I got the gift of my family’s love and respect back which now motivates me to stick with my recovery and never forget the gifts or give them up for anybody. In sobriety I have learned to play guitar, write songs, sing, quit smoking, show integrity, show honesty, change a negative, perspective and have gained the most important and meaningful relationships I’ve ever had. These are the gifts that are now priceless to me thanks to South Orange County Detox & Treatment for showing me the way.
As far back as I can remember, I always knew that I was given the gift of artistic abilities. This gift has given me the opportunities to express myself in many ways that I may have not otherwise engaged in. This type of creativity comes natural to me and holds a special place in my heart while being an outlet to express my soul. This gift of mine has helped me through dark times and in a way has provided me with an escape from life when I needed a break. I’ve used my gift not just for myself but with the intention of helping others as well. Friends and family find interest in my capabilities and tend to be overcome with smiles when I do art for them. Art is also a way for me to connect with others. When I’m focused on using my gifts I find that I have a better connection with everyone. We should never take our gifts for granted, especially if they make us happy and brings smiles to others. I have come to understand that in order to be able to spread the love that is my gift. I need to maintain a path of recovery and honesty so that I can fully expresses my creativity and channel it in a more positive way.
My first gift in sobriety, at the time, didn’t feel like a gift at all; it was the gift of desperation. I hit the same bottom I always do, the bottom of burning every bridge I had with one choice to go to treatment or possibly die. Luckily, I am fortunate enough to have family support so I didn’t end up at Charlie Street. The little things in life can be seen as gifts depending on the way I look at them. When I make the choice to take a disadvantage and flip it into an advantage, it makes collecting a 30-day chip A Gift. Now, I have over 8 months of sobriety and I am enrolled in school to become a hairdresser. That’s not just A Gift; that is A Miracle! What goes around comes around and with the help of Salina and South Orange County Detox & Treatment, I’ve learned to put my energy into hard work rather the in using. Watching it pay off while learning the skills of being comfortable being uncomfortable has shown me how to push through stressful situations that, in the past, I would have ran from or needed a substance in order to cope. The gift of learning who I want to be as a person has helped me understand who I really am. My favorite gift in sobriety is being able to push through my doubts that used to hold me back from growing, now I’m able to test my beliefs and prove the negative thought wrong. Life can one big gift if you’re willing to see it and open your eyes to the gifts that are there for the taking.