Blessings of Authentic Relationships in Recovery

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In my opinion, when I am feeling down or ungrateful, I count the blessings in my life. It’s easy to forget everything that is a privilege that comes for free in life. Even though I have lived a very rough life, looking back on it now, I’ve always had many blessings surrounding me. By using drugs I over looked all of them. Getting off drugs now is really important to humble myself and look at what I have. At the top of my list of Blessings I have the love and care of South Orange County Detox and Treatment (SOCD) and the real relationship I share here. Without them I would be lost. Count your Blessings.


Blessings from My Higher Power

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In my active addiction, I rejected any idea or concept of God because I had gotten so comfortable living my life fueled by self-will run riot. I didn’t want to believe that anyone or anything in my life had control over me, and I didn’t want to have faith in anything greater than myself because growing up, I felt forsaken by God. I wondered why God didn’t protect me from life and I wondered why he didn’t answer my prayers. When I came into treatment and into the rooms of A.A. it took me a long time to grasp any concept of a Higher Power. I still believed that I had full control over my life, and I wanted to continue to live under my own hand. I learned time and time again that I don’t have control over drugs and alcohol, because I would remain in my own will and use drugs because I had absolutely no control and using drugs was easier than facing myself and living life on life’s terms. I didn’t want to admit that I was powerless over anything in my life. Until I could fully and completely even begin to admit that I was powerless over drugs and alcohol, and that I needed to have faith in something greater than myself, I could not remain clean and sober. I always felt that God was punishing me when I was growing up, and I was blinded by my selfishness and victim complex to ever see any beauty or Blessings in the world. I didn’t believe that Blessings even existed. I truly believed that God would punish me for the rest of my life because I was and felt different from everyone around me.

Being in recovery, and being introduced to a power greater than myself has opened my eyes to so many things that I never thought I would be able to see. It has taken time, patience and a good amount of spiritual searching to get where I am today. Today I am able to wake up and see the beautiful things in life that I am grateful for as well as the way that my Higher Power works in my life- by showing me Blessings that I cannot explain. By putting my faith and will into the hands of my Higher Power, I am able to experience these moments in life that are unexplainable. God-shots is what I like to call them, or in other words, little Blessings that happen out of nowhere that show me that my Higher Power is active in my life and watching over me. And in return when I actively seek a connection with my Higher Power, take the next indicated step and continue to work a program of recovery then my Higher Power presents himself by showing me just how Blessed I am. Six months ago, if you told me that I would be where I am today, I would have called you crazy. Today I have a strong fellowship of women, I have a faith in a Higher Power and I get the opportunity to work my 12 steps and help other Alcoholics. Without my Higher Power I would not be able to experience these Blessings in my life that help me grow on a daily basis.

Sentimental Blessings

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Before I dedicated myself to the abstinence of drugs and alcohol, I was blinded by entitlement and couldn't see any blessings in my life.  In recovery, the" Gift of Desperation" was a Blessing to me and ultimately brought me to the place where I am today. I’m alive, and for that I am grateful. When I keep this mindset my whole life becomes one Big Blessing. My Higher Power has shown me not to count my blessings, but rather hold onto them with Sentimental Value that way I’ll always stay in gratitide and I will always be able to see and experience the blessings in my life.  It’s important to respect your Blessings...that way you won't take them for granted.

Turning Mistakes into Blessings in Recovery

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Many things have happened in my life over the years, some good some bad. At times some of the things that I thought were bad turned out to be Blessings in disguise. Blessings come in all types of forms. Some I’m able to recognize right away and others I’m not. One of the biggest Blessings in my life today is sobriety. I’m beyond grateful for everything it’s brought me in my life and all that it’s taught me about myself. I thought all my mistakes were for nothing and done in vain, but the fact that I’m able to be a living miracle and hopefully help others some day is a Blessing.

Enjoying God Given Blessings in Sobriety- Recovery Word of the Week-Blessings

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Blessings- What a hard thing to put into words. When I first think of this word, the things that come to mind is God given gifts, or things we hope for. In my reality, it’s never that, sometimes it’s dark clouds with silver linings and other times miniscule golden nuggets that you could collect and eventually add up to something beautiful that you may have never even known you needed. In my addiction, Blessings were finding money on the ground or finding drugs I had hidden and later forgotten about, or weaseling a few more dollars out of my Mom. The word has changed so much for me now, after getting clean and sober. It’s becoming the little things like repaired relationships or being able to give back something to someone that was freely given to me. Its new, real and I get to wake up clean and sober for the rest of my life if I so choose to.

Unexpected Blessings- Recovery Word of the Week- Blessings

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Blessings help me realize what I can be grateful for. Blessings can come in all forms at the seemingly right time. I guess that’s why it’s called a Blessing, because it’s so unexpected. Blessings can also be found in the moment. When you realize that you are happy and content with who is in your life and what you have created for yourself. I consider myself Blessed today not just because of my clean time, but because I have people in my life that support me and whom I support back. I see myself worthy of a life ahead of me, and just seven months ago I didn’t think this would all be possible. That’s a Blessing. Being able to make progress and not just wait for it to happen.