To me, willingness is crucial in my recovery. Throughout my many stints in treatment I can measure my success by the amount of willingness I had. I was never capable of growing or healing if I wasn’t willing to give up a life of addiction, take suggestion or view the world from a different perspective. It seems like it would be so easy and simple to become willing but to actually take that step and to cross into the realm of humility and selflessness takes quite a bit of work, especially with the ego that an addict possesses. One of the most important lessons I’ve had in willingness was being willing to become transparent – allowing others to see my true self with all my flaws, defects, secrets and demons. When I did this, I was truly able to grow and deal. Like the saying goes, “I’m only as sick as my secrets” and once I revealed myself was I able to truly change. As scary and uncomfortable as change is, I was willing to walk a different path – A path I’ve always envisioned for myself but was too afraid to wake. Willingness is a courageous thing but in order to live the life I want to live, I’m going to have to keep practicing it.